A Mother’s Love

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Yesterday was Mother’s Day.

Mother’s Day has always been a really tough day for me because I lost my mom at a very young age so, the day was always filled with people showering their mothers with love and appreciation while I sat back and wished for the impossible; “If only my mom was here and I could just wrap my arms around her…”

It’s fascinating the things that people take for granted like something as simple as hugging their mom is something that someone else only wishes they had.

Last year was the culmination of the pain of not having my mom around. I had the hardest, yet most cathartic Mothers Day and after 24 years, I finally got my healing and found peace in the middle of the storm.

It’s amazing what happens when you truly give your life to Christ. He really begins to pick up all of your broken pieces and then He creates a whole new masterpiece. A lot of the time, you don’t even realize you never fully healed from a situation until God shines a light on it and makes you face it head on. I thought I had healed from losing my mother in a tragic way but all I did was stop the bleeding. The wound never got a chance to heal properly and slowly but surely, I was bleeding out internally and I didn’t even know.

I was bleeding out because I never allowed myself to get close enough to people because the pain of losing someone I love was too much. So, I was a closed off and cold in relationships except with family and very close friends. I was bleeding out because I created an impenetrable fortress that kept my feelings and emotions from spilling out.

But then God came and he knocked that impenetrable wall down and showed me how much beauty there was in my brokenness and He gave me a safe place to just feel the pain, not just go through the motions.

At my church on Mother’s Day 2017, I finally let myself feel the pain, loss, anguish and complete desolation of losing my mother and as sobs wracked my body, through my blurry vision I saw the open arms of my pastor as she enveloped me in an embrace that had to have been sent straight from heaven as a seal from God saying that He GOT me.

As the sobs subsided and the tears began to dry up, there came this beautiful peace that washed over me like a warm, thick blanket and I found myself smiling. I smiled because another part of my testimony fell into place and I knew that there are many people out there who feel the depth of the pain that I felt and still feel from time to time, but God showed me how to find the peace in the middle of the storm.

This year, I was able to be a beacon of strength for someone else as they let themselves feel the pain of losing their mom and in that moment, I realized how God’s ways always come full circle. I had to go through the unimaginable pain of losing my mother because my testimony is one day going to help someone else find their healing in the midst of the storm. I would not wish losing a parent on anyone but I now understand that those who are strong enough to endure such a loss, have the responsibility to help others endure, overcome and heal as well.

You know what else is amazing?

For the first time in a really long time, I didn’t feel sad yesterday, I simply felt…Peace. And you wonder why I’m sold out for Jesus? Who else could have turned my pain into something where when I think about it, all I can feel is the peace that God infused into my very being the day I handed over that pain to him.

To all the people out there who lost their mothers, I feel your pain so profoundly because a mother’s love is irreplaceable but, I am here to tell you that if you trust God with your broken pieces, he will turn them into a whole new masterpiece.

Just. Trust. HIM.

It was the best decision I have ever made.

 

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Stay on the Wall!

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Staying on the wall is a lot harder than it sounds. It is probably the hardest thing you will have to do in your journey with Christ. Staying on the wall makes surrendering your heart and will over to Jesus look like child’s play.

IT.IS.BRUTAL.

Have you ever had one of those weeks where from the minute you wake up until the minute you lay your head back down to sleep, you are being tested, pruned, purged, molded, gutted and back to being tested? Have you ever gone through days upon days of constant pruning and purging of your flesh? It is absolutely gut-wrenching and the most uncomfortable thing you will endure.

Transition seasons are very important seasons in the life of a believer but it is also one of the hardest. Your season of transition takes place between where you are now and where you are going. The in between area is where it gets really crazy.

I am in my in-between area right now and I only have one word to describe it: HELP!

In seasons of transition, you will find yourself in situations that test everything in you and the angels of God will be dispensed to judge the disposition of your heart and how you react to the hand you’ve been dealt. God is in a season of judgement and he has dispensed angels to judge, observe, discern and make declarations against the body of Christ.

We are in a season of reckoning that will produce many casualties and the body of Christ will receive a death blow because believers will be turning away from the truth of the word to explore other pastures.

This is not the season to be so callous.

This season is going to stretch us in ways that we can’t even begin to imagine or fathom and it’s going to be extremely uncomfortable. But, God asks of only one thing from us as we travail through the forests, deserts and valleys and that is to STAY ON THE WALL.

When God spoke this to me this morning, I had a flash of every single person that is connected to me (My family, friends, covenant family, coworkers, onlookers, etc.) and I envisioned something my spiritual father said we have to do in life which involves holding my arms up above my head and staying in position. I realized that the minute I falter, everything that is connected to me will falter too.

You can’t afford to take your eyes off the wall. You can’t afford to take your eyes off of your assignment. You can’t afford to be moved to and fro by your emotions which are 99.99999% always biased and wrong.

YOU CAN’T AFFORD TO LEAVE THE WALL.

The lives of your family depends on it. The lives of your lineage depends on it. Your destiny and purpose depends on it. Anyone connected to you will feel the aftershocks of you walking away from the wall because it starts from the head down.

Here is my testimony:

I am a warrior in Christ and my faith is steeped in a belief system that is based on the truth of the word. I will not doubt God and I can’t afford to doubt myself because if “greater is he that is in me than he that is in the world-1 John 4:4″, when I doubt myself, aren’t I in turn doubting God?

I will win. I will prosper. My life is a victory lap! Speak to it! Speak it over your life!

I will not cross every “T” and dot every “I” but I will proclaim the glory of God from the fruit of my lips and I will stay on the wall.

The kingdom of God needs believers who are not easily shaken or moved from their seat of authority in Christ. Do we not realize how hard we fought to get that seat in the first place? The hell we had to go through? The season and climate that we are in can’t take another lukewarm believer. The kingdom needs fire and passion! That is the only way the will of God will be manifested in the Earth because he will have people whose passion for his kingdom opens up new realms in the heavens to bring light and life to regions and nations.

 STAY ON THE WALL!

The Beauty in Singleness

If you’re still here after reading the title then I know you’re ready to read what I have to say.

Singleness is often defined as lonely, unfulfilling, empty and just boring.

Here is my definition of singleness: Necessary, magical, illustrious, and life changing in so many good ways.

A lot of people want to be in relationships but do you have what it takes to be someone’s partner, like FOR REAL? Do you have what it takes to forgive the person you are with without grudges after they’ve hurt you or vice versa? Do you have what it takes to build a foundation that is saturated in trust, friendship, accountability and most importantly, compassion? Do you have what it takes?

Relation-ship.

Relation is defined as the way in which two or more objects or people are connected.

Ship is defined as a vessel that is used to carry what travels the world’s waters and other sufficiently deep waterways.

Relation-ship therefore is defined as a particular type of connection between two or more entities or phenomena that carries weight across deep waterways.( or in this case, situations and trials you will face together). It is a binding, usually continuous association between individuals wherein one has some influence on feelings or actions of the other.

Before you read on, I want you answer this question: Why are you single?

From your own perspective, jot it down on a piece of paper or simply come up with the answer in your mind.

For many single young Christians out there like myself who follow Christ, they are actively seeking a spouse. They want to be married. But, what most of them don’t realize is that they are already married…

Let me say that again just in case you missed that part: Youare already in a marriage if you are in covenant with God.

When you are in covenant with God, the same rules and stipulations apply to what would be expected in an earthly marriage. Here’s four examples of why:

1. Courtship: You still have to court God. No matter how long or deep your relationship with God is or has been, you have to actively seek him every day. That’s the same thing we do when we’re dating but the only difference is, the courting does not stop once the covenant is made. If anything, it’s just now really beginning.

2. Quality Time: You still have to spend quality time with God. One of the keys to any successful relationship or marriage is quality time. Spending time with God in a quiet place replenishes the covenant and fills both parties back up. The same goes for relationships today, we must spend quality time with our loved ones, it is imperative that we do so because it strengthens the covenant that we made with them.

3. Communication: You still have to communicate with God. A lot. The only way to gain revelation and understanding is through communication, which is why prayer is so important. God wants to be in constant communication with us, no matter how brief. Just like in a relationship, as you go throughout the day and you check in with your loved one just to let them know you’re thinking about them. The same thing applies here when it comes to communicating with God. Sometimes just checking in makes a world of difference.

4. Laying Your Life Down: You have to make a choice every day to lay your life down for God. It doesn’t work if you give your life to God one time and say “God knows how much I love him so it’s all good.” Actually, it’s not. Laying your life down means being willing to sacrifice your wants to fulfill the other person’s needs. Sacrifice is one of the major keys to a lasting relationship. In my opinion, it’s the most important because every single day, you are actively making a choice to love that person no matter what and to do what you can on your part to make sure it stays that way. That takes incredible commitment and dedication to do but it’s worth it. It’s not about what you can get from the relationship, it’s about what you can give to the relationship. What are you pouring out that is conducive to the longevity of your relationship? We must ask ourselves these questions daily.

All in all, there are many more examples but the ones above are meant to simply show all you singles out there that building a covenant relationship with God will teach you the true essence of marriage and the foundation it will have to be built on. So, instead of searching for a spouse, search to deepen your covenant with Him because you are already spoken for. In other words, when God brings your future spouse into your life, that’s Him making a sacrifice for you because He wants to make you happy. Now, He will have to share you with someone else when at one point in time, all your attention and devotion was on Him. If that’s not sacrifice, I don’t know what is.

The Shift

There comes a point in your journey with Christ where a shift happens. It’s subtle at first but then it starts to build momentum and increase in stature, effectiveness and significance.

I felt the shift back in October but it finally reached the final stage of impact this morning during my prayer time.

For weeks I’ve been dealing with afflictions, attacks on my mind and just in an all around brawl. There were times I would wake up and feel as though I just went through a couple rounds in the ring with an opponent that is used to being undefeated. My eyes would sting from lack of sleep even though I got a full 7-8 hours. Aches and pain made my body tense and brittle and I was exhausted.

People often correlate going through hell with things going horribly wrong in their everyday lives such as not being able to pay their bills, car trouble, relationship issues, deaths in the family, etc.

I correlate going through hell with the things I can’t even see, yet they send me into a tailspin. Facing a battle that you can’t even see with the naked eye but still having to fight tooth and nail for your victory despite going into it completely blind is a special kind of hell. That’s why the war on our mind is much more detrimental than any other war we will face. We can’t see it coming until it’s already there and on a rampage.

But, here’s the amazing part.

In the midst of all this, God was there fighting with me. I serve a God who not only loves me but he has complete dominion. I am never alone no matter what circumstances I face and that gives me a strength the replenishes my soul.

The shift that happened this morning reminded me of a scripture that I used to recite an abbreviated version of daily but stopped doing so for a while and it goes a little something like this:

In all circumstances I will put on my shield of faith with which I will be able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked one. Put on my helmet of salvation and the sword of the spirit which is the word of God; and praying always with all prayer and supplication in the Spirit, being watchful to this end with all perseverance and supplication for all the saints. [Ephesians 6:16-18]

My shield of faith is my lifeline. I can’t do anything without it and my level of faith is conducive to the level of manifestation that shall take place in my life.

My helmet of salvation is the grace that God has bestowed upon me along with being taught the truth of the gospel. My salvation is dependent on me continuing to live in complete and utter truth, no matter what.

My sword of the spirit which is the word of God is my bread. It feeds me in all the ways I need to be nourished. Need to know the principles of marriage? [1Corinthians 7] Need to know why God values singleness in his servants for a season? [1Corinthians 7:34-35] Need to know the five proven biblical money principles that will guarantee wealth 100% of the time? [Luke 14:28; Proverbs 22:7; 1Corinthians 15:33; Proverbs 21:20; 2Corinthians 9:7] The word of God is the holy grail and it is the truth and the life. It is my own personal Google!

I pray in the spirit and I’m developing the keen ability to be a watchman and a guard over those who are connected to me in any way. My senses are being built up to recognize and discern. I must stay on the wall because the lives and well being of those connected to me depends on my ability to be steadfast in my pursuit of the Kingdom and its philosophies.

This shift will undoubtedly come with opposition and retaliation. But, I’ve never been one to back down or back up from a challenge especially when the reward supersedes the trial and I am guaranteed victory. I will not back down and I will not throw in the towel. All I have is a word from God and a passion for his kingdom. I will not stop, I can’t afford to pack up and leave. I will make a home in every season that I enter into in Christ because his grace is sufficient.

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For believers out there like me, as you read this I want you to be encouraged and replenished with a vigor and hunger for Christ and his kingdom all over again. We are all in this together and we will win this war together.

Don’t. Stop. Pushing.

Honor…What It Means For This Generation

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hon·or
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noun
  1. 1.
    high respect; esteem.
    synonyms: distinctionrecognitionprivilegeglorykudoscachetprestigemeritcredit.

Honor is the act of showing high respect to those that come before you. Some may ask, “What about someone who is undeserving of receiving such honor? What should you do then?”

My answer to that question is very simple… Honor them anyway.

I could feel something stir up in you as you read this. Why? Because it stirred up in me too. Understanding honor goes a long way in you being able to exercise it in your everyday life effectively.

Let me break it down for you.

Honor is one of the most essential tools that an individual can have and use towards others. In this generation, we have disowned honor and have replaced it with rebellion. We would rather rebel than admit that our lack of honor has shaped our lives but also our belief system in such a way that our rationale has become tainted. We don’t respect authority because of our innate belief that they don’t know what they’re talking about.

In fact, our favorite phrase when we are chastised and reprimanded for the things we do that often lack keen judgment on our part is, “They don’t understand what it’s like to be our age. They lived in a different time.”

I’m pretty sure some millennials out there have said this about their parents, grandparents, aunts, uncles, pastors, etc. on more than one occasion. But, here’s where we’ve been so wrong. The wisdom of our elders will always supersede our level of knowledge because the hell they went through to learn the lessons they learned was not by sheer coincidence and it is universal. It stands the test of time and just because we are a generation apart does not negate the accuracy of the wisdom that is being imparted in us.

Let me use an example.

Imagine you came from a broken home where your family was in complete shambles and your mom, dad or both succumbed to the pressure and just threw in the towel. They stopped being the parents you needed and started focusing on other things that were detrimental to the way you view the world and family structures. Nine times out of ten, you probably said to yourself, “I will never be like them. When I have children, I’m going to make sure they never go through what I went through…”

While you are focused on the negative cycle that you were subjected to, you miss the part where the wisdom was imparted into your life. Because of what you saw happen to your parents as a child fueled your drive to make sure that you did things differently. Just because you’re not sitting around the table with them giving you advice on life like a happy family does not negate the lessons you learned on their behalf. Your acknowledgement of that very important fact is the first step to you understanding honor.

Despite their faults, your understanding and acceptance of how their mistakes built you up in a way that will undoubtedly benefit your future generations by showing you what not to do makes honoring them easy.

Here’s another example.

How does it make you feel when someone does not keep their word? If you’re anything like me, it annoys you to no end. Now, imagine if that person comes back around and promises to make it up to you and do what they said they were going to do. So, you decide to give them a second chance and once again, they drop the ball. What would you do then?

Odds are, you’ll probably never take them at their word again because they’ve proven to you that they can’t keep their word.

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Honor also stems from doing what you said you were going to do. Whether that is in your household, in your workplace, in your church, in your relationship, whatever the case may be. Keeping your word and being known for being someone who always follows through will take you further in life than you can even imagine. Your credibility will open doors to opportunities that will change your life. Why? Because you have proven time and time again that you can be trusted with your words.

There are enough people in this world making empty promises and declarations that will have zero follow through and execution. Choose to be the person whose words take on a life of their own and they manifest into your reality because before you speak, you’ve made up your mind that you will honor those words. Trust me, your life will never be the same.

Lastly, honor stems from humility.

“True humility is staying teachable, regardless of how much you already know.” -Unknown

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Being steeped in humility does not take away from the work you do or how well you do it. Being humble showcases your ability to stand apart from the crowd with your prowess but choosing to have the heart of a servant. What a beautiful trait to have and those who exercise this kind of humility deserve double honor.

Showing honor does not equate showing weakness, I can’t even begin to tell you how strong it makes you. Therefore, choose honor every single time for it will never steer you wrong.

Now tell me, what does honor mean to you now?

Expanding Your Tents of Perception

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“If you change the way you look at things, the things you look at change.” -Wayne Dyer

First things first, we live in a generation that uses God as a scapegoat. Whenever their life starts falling apart or they face a devastating tragedy, their automatic response and thought process deciphers it as “God doesn’t love me because if he did, how could he allow this to happen?”

Here’s a question for you. Actually, make that two questions.

First, what does one have to do with the other? Second, did you and God sit down together at a table and have an in-depth conversation where he told you that to your face? Did you actually hear those words from God himself?

Odds are, your answer right now is no, but if you answered yes, leave a comment explaining how you got God to sit at a table with you and converse because I want him to sit at my table too!

I need you to hear me on this:

Sometimes when your life is falling apart, God has nothing to do with it. The blame rests completely on your shoulders but our lack of identity and acknowledgement for the parts we play in our own demise often goes unaddressed. Instead, we need to find someone else to take the blame so that the weight won’t feel so heavy on our shoulders.

Individuals have a very dangerous misconception that the minute they give their heart to Christ, all of their problems will magically go away and they will live in a cloud of peace and contentment for the rest of their lives because Jesus has their heart.

Wrong.

When you give your heart and your life to Christ, all of your problems truly begin. You begin to face things that are in some cases unreal and unimaginable. You are tested, you are broken, you are being built back up from mere ashes. What you have to understand is that giving your heart to Christ is only the very first step. After that step comes the real transformation because God needs to remove some things from the very core of who you are because of the impact its had on your life.

God begins a surgery on every single hidden part of you and you must confront every demon, every stronghold, every fear, every insecurity so that God can surgically remove the toxic waste that has been poisoning your body from the inside out.

Here’s the kicker.

God already loves you. He’s just waiting for you to love him back with all of yourself; not just a little piece like you give everyone else. I understand the need to guard your heart but God is not man and he will not fail you, it’s just not in his DNA. He follows through every. single. time.

Here’s an example.

Today, I am souled out for Jesus. I am gone, vanished, poof! He is my beginning and end. All my treasures sit in the palm of his left hand and my heart is sitting in his right. But, I too used to question why God allowed certain things to happen to me but then something amazing happened.

I grew up and matured in the body of Christ.

God needs the believers to be walking testimonies so that we can accurately speak into the lives of others through divine experience and the victory of that circumstance sitting on our shoulders.

I’ve been through a lot but look at where I am now! Those hard times didn’t kill me, they built me up.

I am a completely different person. I don’t walk the same, I don’t move the same, I don’t even look the same. I am ethereal and a temple. I walk with a reverence for God because he’s the only reason that I’m even here today. God has changed my entire life and all he asked of me was to have enough faith to receive it.

Your own personal hell could really mean that God is shifting something in order for you to be a walking testimony and a life saver to someone else and be able to pull them out of it. Maybe you are going through this depression so that when you come out of it victorious, you can speak into someone else’s life because you’ve been there. Expand your tents of perception and ask God to give you clarity over your situation.

You don’t need to be anything other than yourself when it comes to God. He doesn’t want your garments, he just wants you. Say a prayer to him even now and if a prayer doesn’t come to mind, just repeat after me:

“Lord, I come before you today asking for clarity over my situation. I need your grace and mercy and I seek forgiveness for any part I’ve played in it, just have your way. In Jesus name, amen.”

Lastly, I want you to realize that expanding your tents of perception will require a shift in the framework of your heart to allow a pathway for God to move. God is not a scapegoat, he is the lover of our souls even when our souls are completely deteriorated. The amazing thing about God though is that he has a knack for bringing dead things back to life.

Ask him to bring you back to life and start living the life you were always meant to live.

 

 

 

Our Greatest Strength During Times of Tragedy: Love

‘Love your neighbor as yourself.’ There is no commandment greater than these. This post is so necessary as we grapple with the endless string of tragedies and life altering events.

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“We have suffered terror and pitfalls, ruin and destruction. Streams of tears flow from my eyes because my people are destroyed.”

“I called on your name, O Lord, from the depths of the pit. You heard my plea: “Do not close your ears to my 

cry for relief.” You came near when I called you, and you said, “Do not fear”

Lamentations 3:47-48; 55-57

The recent tragedies that we are witnessing are alarming as well as heartbreaking. It seems as though in America we tend to fight over things that doesn’t do much for progression for the human race, but when it comes to tragedies, it is almost like we understand humanity all over again.

The Las Vegas shooting has rocked America again in a devastating link of events that has been hitting America for what seems like the past several months. Fires in the West, Hurricanes in…

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